Yeah I need help

I've spaced out. My mind keep wandering off. I'm awake yet I'm asleep. The crisp cool midnight air feels refreshing and does me good. I come back to my room and fall back into the vacuum. I'm listening to some retarded beats from a wannabe rapper. I keep hearing what?! what?! what?! My mind then floats to more important stuff being discussed in the media. And then I decide to post this all here. Now I reflect on my life and can't keep away those what-if thoughts. I try to see my future but I see nothing. Just a black void with some distant stars.

seriously, wtf?